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@nate (like 3am texting the night after thorn's post)

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it doesn't sit right

@ever.empty

[everempty]

Be more clear

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staying away from you.

[everempty]

You said you never wanted to think of Thorn as someone who could hurt you.

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and i don't

i love thorn
he would never hurt me

that's still true. it was true then and it's true now.

[everempty]

Except I could hurt you.

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yeah but here's the thing

i don't think you will

[everempty]

That's... optimistic.

What makes you say that?

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you said Anna and i found you

and then two months ago me anna and doe helped you find balance

which means for what, ten months to a year? you didn't hurt me and i didn't just abandon you

so with that being the case why would i abandon you now?

[everempty]

I tried to Nate.

Until Anna helped me, I was still trying to kill you. It's only been two months since I've stopped.

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and yet, i didn't let you go

[everempty]

... No. At home you didn't.

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then why would i, here?

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There's a years worth of experience between you now and the Nate I left at home...

I don't fault you fearing me.

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you showed me that shadow magic and i just

it took me back to those first years. that magic hurts and i wasn't expecting

i'm trying to say, i'm sorry, for freaking out. i needed to process all of this. and i'm still kind of not done

but i know it's not in me to walk away from you.

[everempty]

You don't owe me an apology, Nate. I understand.



But you're still never 100% safe around me.... and I don't want you living in fear of me.

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neither do i

so i'll find a way. apparently doe anna and i already did something to help you

i want to know everything. everything that happened during that year, because you're right. i'm not that person yet. but i need to get there.

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Nate...

I do need you to know. I would never hurt you willingly.

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i know.

you said i don't know you anymore, but i know thorn. thorn would never hurt me.

[everempty]

That part's not gone. I promise.

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i don't want to be scared of you
i'll work on it

[everempty]

What can I do to help that?

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let me get to know you?
the you that you are now

and tell me about that year

[everempty]

Very well.

The year wasn't a good year. After Ineroth and Thorn were reunited, the consciousnesses didn't really meld initially. They were too different. Thorn was frightened and didn't know how to control the demon, and Ineroth took full advantage of that.

He came to you pretending to be Thorn, because now he could look like Thorn. He deceived you and attempted to consume you. You, of course, figured it out at the last moment.

The rest of the year was spent with Ineroth playing these games to mess with your head. But you didn't give up hope that you could find Thorn's soul. I think the fact that Ineroth appeared as Thorn is what drove you to believe Thorn's spirit was still present and salvageable.

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he did what i assumed you were doing

i have this friend who told me you'd do it. that all demons would. he's not wrong.

how did i get back to anna? the last thing i remember is ineroth taking you. i could feel your magic pushing me away, and then i woke up here and got like two full years of memories from my last time here. it was a lot and it makes my memories confused

but i know the last thing i knew in my present was losing you.